La douleur exquise!
The heart is a very funny part of the human anatomy. It’s work is to pump blood yet it is the one which is referred to when someone is in pain or when someone is in love. Why does the pain of loosing someone felt in the heart? Why do you feel like you heart is literally breaking?
“I’m heart broken!”
“I love you from the bottom of my heart!”
Having feelings for someone has to be one of the most amazing thing and most terrifying thing at the same time. You’re not sure if the feelings will be mutual or whether you’ll end up being kicked to the curb. Allowing yourself to fall for someone to the point where you actually feel like you love them has to be a test of trust. You never know what the other person is feeling. Never knowing what they think or if they’re genuine. It’s all a matter of trusting your heart and just hoping to get your happily ever after.
For most the feelings are usually mutual. Which is absolutely amazing for most people. Having someone you can totally depend on. Someone you can call yours and only yours (but never be too sure with this generation of humans). Having a person to share your happiness with, to achieve your goals with, to grow with. Amazing right?
The dark side of the feelings we get, unrequited. It has to be a painful and hurtful moment to go through. When you fall in love with someone and there’s nothing you can do about it. Once you fall in love with someone, your whole world changes. Your life gets a whole new meaning. Not talking about “liking” someone. Liking someone can be just lust or a passing feeling. You can tell that to everyone and anyone. From friends to family to even enemies. When feelings get deeper, to the point where you can actually say it out loud,
“I love you.”
Not the point where you think about that person all the time but when you think about them at 2pm when you busy. When your listening to music and some song comes along then their face comes to mind. When your hanging out with your friends and having the time of your life, then for a split second you think about them. You smile, maybe even laugh cause even the thought of them makes you happy. That’s just not a feeling that you “like” someone.
When its unrequited, it can crush you to small itsy bits. It will break your heart to the point where you feel physically sick. When you feel so much love for someone. You want to be there for them, care for them, make them happy but the only thing you can do is swallow the that pain in your throat and put a smile on your face. Why is it with unrequited love, someone always chooses to be “just the friend”.
Isn’t that even more pain that you deserve. To watch them fall in love with someone else and make them as happy as you want them to make you. Or is it because, you’d rather be their friend than not be in their life completely? Is it that then being happy might hurt but it’s all you ever want for them? Isn’t that just a sad life?
To know they’ll never look at you the way you look at them. How your heart leaps just at the slightest attention from them. Someone with such love deserves all the happiness in the world.
You deserve it all!
// Letters you’ll never get //
Stay safe stay happy 💋